Stressed Out

Sense the last time a lot has happened I found out I'm prego. With a Lil boy due to come out march 19th by c-sec.My Dad as we will call him had a horrible motor cycle accident in Sept. and will with my mom having ms and is in a wheel chair. she pretty much lost her will to live. dont really understand that but that's what happen. it was his own fault he was drinking and going 127mph no helmet he is lucky to be alive.it was unsure if he would make it for awhile. so I did what I thought I should do and called his daughters Meg and Anna. Didn't seem to bug Meg to much she didn't even come to see him.Anna Came the every nexted day what was thought to be a caring daughter soon turned out to be a fight to keep him on life support. and to keep all his things in one peace yes she came and not even dead was picking at his bones.Cops were called and I had a fight of course if you know me at all you know I won. I've kept his car,truck clothes and computer and music stuff and all that is his prized stuff safe.I've paid out of my pocket even to pay his car payment and insurance and small bills and sense Nov he has been in the Pecos nursing home. were I have did all the paper work to move him from one place to another just to get him better and some doctors say if I hadn't he might not be here today.Ive taken him smokes and anything he needs sense he has been out of it. I even done all his paper work to get him ssi so his medical bills and stuff will be paid for. and he wont beable to work again so he will have some money to make it when he comes out.Oh you prob want to know that he is very well now he is walking and talking almost normal he has dementia and Allister's. but other then that he is fine. And he will be out of the nursing home in Feb.Last week on new years eve I went to see him and take him a 20 dollars and smokes. He ends up telling me that he wants me to pay for his car. and not use it anymore I was almost blowed away and he cont with when he gets out he wants me and the kids the hell out of his home. and things back to just him and my mom. I'm thinking damn after everything I've done his he shitting me! Well that is what he wants he said he is forgiving his daughter Meg for not coming and he is going to forgive Anna for for everything she did. BTW did I tell you she went to the hospital when he was still out of it and got his wallet from him that had $640.00 in cash and all his credit cards that total $6000.00 and its all gone.She used it to get married.But some how this is all been turned to Ive done something wrong I'm the bad one.I don't understand.My Uncle Toot Said today that I shouldn't worry about it he will make him change his mind.But I Feel like why I'm already hurt that it was even said to start with.A part of me don't want to move from Pecos cause I'm really tired of moving and I know the kids r too we just want a house to stay and make a home it to be our home you know.But the other part is just so tired of all the BS around this place that I want to pick up and go far far from here.I don't know you guys tell me what would you do?Really need you guys on this! Love ya Me

Well new updates

Lets see OK so sisters came and went.Then Dad got drunk and beat up my mom.So now everyone in the house has talked and all want to move.But with 9 people and no money very hard to do. So Jackie has offered to pay for us to move back to holbrook and has of this point we don't know what would be worse really.Then on Tuesday my grandpa had a stroke and on Thursday Ryan and Dad left to go take care of his affairs for a week.Then also on Thursday I was late to go getting Jr and went at 3:05 not 3:00 and left my mom home to watch the kids as she has done everyday we been here.Well she went to the bathroom and when she came back Brandon was gone and she couldn't find him and the door was open so she called us and needless to say a cop picked him up.Now we have to fight with CPS to keep our kids.They came on Friday and said My mom is NO Longer aloud to stay with the kids alone. And Clean Clothes on my bed isn't aloud I have to wash,dry,fold,put away asap as they come out. So nexted week sometime after Tuesday they will be back again. and we have a 90 day open case now.BTW the case worker don't have kids! and has of today my Gramp will be going into surgery tomorrow morning so my dad don't know when they will be home.

Life With Sisters

Well my baby sister came first she is so great we are like 2 peas in a pod. My nephew he is so cute and loves me he even has my nose.Well I've spent over a month with my other sister and well to tell you the truth I cant stand her. She is two faced and mean and hateful no matter how nice I am to her she does whatever she can to cause trouble for me and to say meanly things to me. Well a very strong woman once said : Eleanor Roosevelt said "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent!". She is right and I keep thinking about it and telling myself she isn't worth me getting mad over. But after a month of it I'm tired of her saying shit about my weight just cause I cant fit into a size 4. I guess I need to vent get this off my chest and let my girls give me some words of wisdom. She also sense being here hasn't once been up at 6am with her 3 kids to take care of them that's all me. I get up 6am with her kids and feed them then 7am wake up Jr to get him ready for school, 7:30am take Jr to school, 8am feed rest of kids,9am put dishes in sink and start changing diapers/ Pull ups. 10am give mom her breakfast and her pills "she has MS and is in a wheel chair", 11am get Ryan ready for pre-k, 11:30am take Ryan to school,. 12:15pm Make everyone lunch. 1pm put up all dishes in sink and give mom afternoon pills, 2pm take kids outside to play, 3pm go get Jr & Ryan from school,. 4pm start making dinner,. 5pm eat dinner,. 6pm give 9 kiddo bath time,. 7:30pm last drinks,. 8pm bed time for them they don't go right to bed have to fight with them first by 11pm everyone is sleeping and give mom her bedtime pills,. 12am to 3am clean house "living room,dishes,mopping,laundry" 3am go to sleep to start over again at 6am. and she has the nerve to put me down every chance she gets? Tell me who's right here.

Random thoughts

SO there's a bigger family sisters not sure how I feel alot it but thought I should put down somethings that happened as of late. My dad says that by the first of the year Jay "my husband" will have taken over the business now that seems to be a good thing untill you think about it. He will still have to give my dad 20% of everything that comes in and theres the labor of the crew and then theres the cost of material after that theres nothing let and I not joking theres nothing for jay to bring home so further more in the state of texas if you are a owner then you automatically dont get any help from the state so that means medical and with 6 kids what hell am I going to do? Now we have gotten our own house and it does need lots of work the price we need to pay is 7500.00 total or 200.00 a month till paid.still problem with WHAT MONEY!!! X-mas is nexted month and I dont even have money to get my kids gifts.Yes theres bills and you dont even what me to start on that.I dont know I'm just past stressed and upset hopefully thinks will work out

Halloween

It was a pretty good day.It was fun kids were sooo cute too. My Dad and Jay both let me spray paint there hair Hot Pink it was funny.Then on Monday they had to work with it cause they couldn't get it out.

New Or Old Sisters

OK So This Weekend Has been interesting to say the least. 17 yrs ago my mom meant a man now known as dad to me. He had 4 kids 2 girls and 2 boys & I was told they are now your brother and sisters OK so after this we left and in so left them there with there mom a few months they come to us and once we were a big happy family then things happened and well there mom came and picked them up and never heard from of seen them sense.So this weekend there mom or his ex wife emailed and said he was missing out on sooo much and not all good.So the numbers came and they talked to find out about 1 month after they left us they were taken from there mom who was doing drugs and having problems and put into foster care and the boys were adopted. and to this day don't want anything to do with there dad or us! The girls on the other hand want something to do with us.Anna is the one in the photo with her baby who is 3 months old right now and loves the idea of having a Big sister to learn from she is just 21 and new baby to me 26 with 6 kids so is excited to have me to talk to she will be here Nov 3. Meg is 22 and 3 kids 4,3,7 months hubby is in Iraq but soon she will be coming sometime in Nov date not sure of at this time. I'm excited and all to have them but also scared too for I've been only child for so long what happens if I'm not a good big sister? these are the thoughts I ponder today

More BS

Well Lady's I now know thanks to my dad that when your husband tells you he will do something and gives his word like : Jay told me he would get the gas line fixed by Friday due to it getting colder and shit and no heat in our room so I told him today to make sure it will be done cause the kids are getting upset and don't want to sleep at night cause it cold in there . Well my dad said that I expect to much from jay and I shouldn't told him to get it down and there was a 4 hour lets jump on heather thing about a woman's job is to be in the kitchen and have dinner down when husband walks in the door and house is to be kept white glove clean and a woman is to make the best out of what her husband tells her to do and what he gives her.And A woman is to be seen and not heard from under any reason basic we are there soul to please men. Am I the only one that finds this to be bull shit or what? Sorry had to Vent this give me some feedback.

BTW: Jay don't think this. This bitching post is on My dads thoughts of a woman.