New Or Old Sisters

OK So This Weekend Has been interesting to say the least. 17 yrs ago my mom meant a man now known as dad to me. He had 4 kids 2 girls and 2 boys & I was told they are now your brother and sisters OK so after this we left and in so left them there with there mom a few months they come to us and once we were a big happy family then things happened and well there mom came and picked them up and never heard from of seen them sense.So this weekend there mom or his ex wife emailed and said he was missing out on sooo much and not all good.So the numbers came and they talked to find out about 1 month after they left us they were taken from there mom who was doing drugs and having problems and put into foster care and the boys were adopted. and to this day don't want anything to do with there dad or us! The girls on the other hand want something to do with us.Anna is the one in the photo with her baby who is 3 months old right now and loves the idea of having a Big sister to learn from she is just 21 and new baby to me 26 with 6 kids so is excited to have me to talk to she will be here Nov 3. Meg is 22 and 3 kids 4,3,7 months hubby is in Iraq but soon she will be coming sometime in Nov date not sure of at this time. I'm excited and all to have them but also scared too for I've been only child for so long what happens if I'm not a good big sister? these are the thoughts I ponder today

More BS

Well Lady's I now know thanks to my dad that when your husband tells you he will do something and gives his word like : Jay told me he would get the gas line fixed by Friday due to it getting colder and shit and no heat in our room so I told him today to make sure it will be done cause the kids are getting upset and don't want to sleep at night cause it cold in there . Well my dad said that I expect to much from jay and I shouldn't told him to get it down and there was a 4 hour lets jump on heather thing about a woman's job is to be in the kitchen and have dinner down when husband walks in the door and house is to be kept white glove clean and a woman is to make the best out of what her husband tells her to do and what he gives her.And A woman is to be seen and not heard from under any reason basic we are there soul to please men. Am I the only one that finds this to be bull shit or what? Sorry had to Vent this give me some feedback.

BTW: Jay don't think this. This bitching post is on My dads thoughts of a woman.

updating

Well haven't been updating cause I've forgot my password lol. The kids are doing great Faith and Phillip are 7mos now wow time fly. Jay and I still aren't were we show be I would say romantically but some how its getting better little bit any how. He found 5 Min's last week to take me to lunch it was a very fast eating time but he did try. You know I seen a friend of mine wrote in her blog she had feel out of love with her husband but lately she feel back in love too. I don't feel so bad to say that this same thing has happened to me as well is it after being married so long 7 yrs you forget to say thanks, and hey you look great today, sitting a crossed the room then turn to look or is it a need that makes you want to look to see if made there needing to see you too? as we are married longer do we forget that we like to be flirted with and cuddle and those things that made us fall in love in the first place. I remember it took work and lots of kissing and little things to get us to the point of marriage wasn't a over night I'm in love with you. But then kids came and my attention went to them & or home. And yours went to still wanting to be one of the "guys" and work. So we have lost what once was so inportant to the both of us to make sure we did and in this fell out of love. Now is the time to Fall back in love but how to make the other person see this is inportant for them to do too. It cant be all one sided cause that wont get us anywere we need to be.