Well new updates

Lets see OK so sisters came and went.Then Dad got drunk and beat up my mom.So now everyone in the house has talked and all want to move.But with 9 people and no money very hard to do. So Jackie has offered to pay for us to move back to holbrook and has of this point we don't know what would be worse really.Then on Tuesday my grandpa had a stroke and on Thursday Ryan and Dad left to go take care of his affairs for a week.Then also on Thursday I was late to go getting Jr and went at 3:05 not 3:00 and left my mom home to watch the kids as she has done everyday we been here.Well she went to the bathroom and when she came back Brandon was gone and she couldn't find him and the door was open so she called us and needless to say a cop picked him up.Now we have to fight with CPS to keep our kids.They came on Friday and said My mom is NO Longer aloud to stay with the kids alone. And Clean Clothes on my bed isn't aloud I have to wash,dry,fold,put away asap as they come out. So nexted week sometime after Tuesday they will be back again. and we have a 90 day open case now.BTW the case worker don't have kids! and has of today my Gramp will be going into surgery tomorrow morning so my dad don't know when they will be home.

Life With Sisters

Well my baby sister came first she is so great we are like 2 peas in a pod. My nephew he is so cute and loves me he even has my nose.Well I've spent over a month with my other sister and well to tell you the truth I cant stand her. She is two faced and mean and hateful no matter how nice I am to her she does whatever she can to cause trouble for me and to say meanly things to me. Well a very strong woman once said : Eleanor Roosevelt said "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent!". She is right and I keep thinking about it and telling myself she isn't worth me getting mad over. But after a month of it I'm tired of her saying shit about my weight just cause I cant fit into a size 4. I guess I need to vent get this off my chest and let my girls give me some words of wisdom. She also sense being here hasn't once been up at 6am with her 3 kids to take care of them that's all me. I get up 6am with her kids and feed them then 7am wake up Jr to get him ready for school, 7:30am take Jr to school, 8am feed rest of kids,9am put dishes in sink and start changing diapers/ Pull ups. 10am give mom her breakfast and her pills "she has MS and is in a wheel chair", 11am get Ryan ready for pre-k, 11:30am take Ryan to school,. 12:15pm Make everyone lunch. 1pm put up all dishes in sink and give mom afternoon pills, 2pm take kids outside to play, 3pm go get Jr & Ryan from school,. 4pm start making dinner,. 5pm eat dinner,. 6pm give 9 kiddo bath time,. 7:30pm last drinks,. 8pm bed time for them they don't go right to bed have to fight with them first by 11pm everyone is sleeping and give mom her bedtime pills,. 12am to 3am clean house "living room,dishes,mopping,laundry" 3am go to sleep to start over again at 6am. and she has the nerve to put me down every chance she gets? Tell me who's right here.

Random thoughts

SO there's a bigger family sisters not sure how I feel alot it but thought I should put down somethings that happened as of late. My dad says that by the first of the year Jay "my husband" will have taken over the business now that seems to be a good thing untill you think about it. He will still have to give my dad 20% of everything that comes in and theres the labor of the crew and then theres the cost of material after that theres nothing let and I not joking theres nothing for jay to bring home so further more in the state of texas if you are a owner then you automatically dont get any help from the state so that means medical and with 6 kids what hell am I going to do? Now we have gotten our own house and it does need lots of work the price we need to pay is 7500.00 total or 200.00 a month till paid.still problem with WHAT MONEY!!! X-mas is nexted month and I dont even have money to get my kids gifts.Yes theres bills and you dont even what me to start on that.I dont know I'm just past stressed and upset hopefully thinks will work out

Halloween

It was a pretty good day.It was fun kids were sooo cute too. My Dad and Jay both let me spray paint there hair Hot Pink it was funny.Then on Monday they had to work with it cause they couldn't get it out.

New Or Old Sisters

OK So This Weekend Has been interesting to say the least. 17 yrs ago my mom meant a man now known as dad to me. He had 4 kids 2 girls and 2 boys & I was told they are now your brother and sisters OK so after this we left and in so left them there with there mom a few months they come to us and once we were a big happy family then things happened and well there mom came and picked them up and never heard from of seen them sense.So this weekend there mom or his ex wife emailed and said he was missing out on sooo much and not all good.So the numbers came and they talked to find out about 1 month after they left us they were taken from there mom who was doing drugs and having problems and put into foster care and the boys were adopted. and to this day don't want anything to do with there dad or us! The girls on the other hand want something to do with us.Anna is the one in the photo with her baby who is 3 months old right now and loves the idea of having a Big sister to learn from she is just 21 and new baby to me 26 with 6 kids so is excited to have me to talk to she will be here Nov 3. Meg is 22 and 3 kids 4,3,7 months hubby is in Iraq but soon she will be coming sometime in Nov date not sure of at this time. I'm excited and all to have them but also scared too for I've been only child for so long what happens if I'm not a good big sister? these are the thoughts I ponder today

More BS

Well Lady's I now know thanks to my dad that when your husband tells you he will do something and gives his word like : Jay told me he would get the gas line fixed by Friday due to it getting colder and shit and no heat in our room so I told him today to make sure it will be done cause the kids are getting upset and don't want to sleep at night cause it cold in there . Well my dad said that I expect to much from jay and I shouldn't told him to get it down and there was a 4 hour lets jump on heather thing about a woman's job is to be in the kitchen and have dinner down when husband walks in the door and house is to be kept white glove clean and a woman is to make the best out of what her husband tells her to do and what he gives her.And A woman is to be seen and not heard from under any reason basic we are there soul to please men. Am I the only one that finds this to be bull shit or what? Sorry had to Vent this give me some feedback.

BTW: Jay don't think this. This bitching post is on My dads thoughts of a woman.

updating

Well haven't been updating cause I've forgot my password lol. The kids are doing great Faith and Phillip are 7mos now wow time fly. Jay and I still aren't were we show be I would say romantically but some how its getting better little bit any how. He found 5 Min's last week to take me to lunch it was a very fast eating time but he did try. You know I seen a friend of mine wrote in her blog she had feel out of love with her husband but lately she feel back in love too. I don't feel so bad to say that this same thing has happened to me as well is it after being married so long 7 yrs you forget to say thanks, and hey you look great today, sitting a crossed the room then turn to look or is it a need that makes you want to look to see if made there needing to see you too? as we are married longer do we forget that we like to be flirted with and cuddle and those things that made us fall in love in the first place. I remember it took work and lots of kissing and little things to get us to the point of marriage wasn't a over night I'm in love with you. But then kids came and my attention went to them & or home. And yours went to still wanting to be one of the "guys" and work. So we have lost what once was so inportant to the both of us to make sure we did and in this fell out of love. Now is the time to Fall back in love but how to make the other person see this is inportant for them to do too. It cant be all one sided cause that wont get us anywere we need to be.